This song is one of my favorite songs of all time. I am totally a swoon me kinda girl. This post isn't about the swooning part of this song, but just for the record if you are one of my readers and end up dating me, just play this song for me! :)
"I know that the bridges that I've burned
Along the way
Have left me with these walls and these scars
That won't go away
And opening up has always been the hardest thing
Until you came."
Have left me with these walls and these scars
That won't go away
And opening up has always been the hardest thing
Until you came."
This is what I've been thinking about all day... And what I've come up with is I'm still pretty freaking awesome. Haha Let me tell you how I came to that conclusion. When I tell most people the story of my life, they are amazed that someone has been through so much and still has such a positive attitude. In fact last week I got the frustrating news that I wouldn't be getting the house that I had already put about 7,000 dollars into. I told my Realtor, "it's okay, I think this is better, I'm just gonna call this my good Samaritan act for the year." Later she texted me and said, "I think you are the most positive, forward moving person I have ever met." What I am getting at with that is, anything that I've ever been through, all of it had a purpose, a reason. Every bit of it built me to be the woman that I am, and I think that woman is kicking life's ass! In the last 8 months, I have had some of the loneliest moments of my life. In the last 2 weeks, I have had some of the most confident and full moments. I wake up each morning in my new life, so happy that I get to have the opportunity to start over. I get to make this whatever I want it to be, and if someone wants to join me I get to say yes or no. It's crazy that one person can affect you that much, my relationship consumed the bright ray of light that I was. Now that girl gets to come out and play again, that girl walks around the grocery store smiling at every person (even the ones that hurry and look away like I'm a psycho!) All of me is sooo much for most people, but all of me is perfect to me. I think my walls and scars are amazing, and any person who gets the opportunity to attempt breaking them down would be one lucky guy. I know that any person that has the chance to be around my little crew will be changed forever, I am raising little world changers. It's not because of anything I'm doing, it's because they are just that great! Every time I think about my future with these 5 little people, I just smile... There are marvelous things to come, I just know it!
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