Tuesday, May 6, 2014

The Wisdom to Know the Difference

My heart was so broken knowing that my marriage was falling apart.  I felt like I had done everything to save it, and he had just watched it fade.  I would find myself curled up in a ball sobbing in emotional pain from what I felt was abuse.  In the past 2 years I had lost multiple people close to me; my father to a heart attack, one of my best friends and aunt to suicide, and 5 other family members.  I felt broken and defeated every single day and night.  I didn't know where to turn or what was the right answer.  During this time I stumbled upon one of my favorite prayers, it changed my thinking. It helped me realize that the only persons actions that I was responsible for, were my own.  Everyone around me; my best friends, my in laws, anyone who I thought cared about me could walk away at any point. I needed to be happy being me, and if me wasn't staying married to the person I thought I'd spend my life with, then that was okay.  Everyday in my Yoga class during savasana I repeat "The wisdom to know the difference."  For me it is the wisdom to know when to walk away, when I'm being used or taken advantage of, and the wisdom to know when someone is deserving of my time.


  

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